I suck at this

I really do suck at keeping up with this blog and writing interesting little tidbits everyday. I honestly don't have any stories to tell and nothing exciting happens to me.

Other things I suck at:
*cooking
*telling people when they hurt my feelings
*functioning with less than 5 hours sleep
*keeping my NY resolutions

My day-Beginning at the beginning
12:00am-Sleeping
1:00am-Wake up to Caroline cough-choking
2:00am-Sleeping
3:00am-See 1:00am
4:00am-Toss and turn
5:00am-Oh joy! Ten minutes of sleep!! Wake up to Caroline cough/choking and then screaming to be fed. Feed her. Take shower. Do hair & throw on some makeup. Get dressed.
6:00am-Finish getting the sitter bag together. Drop Caroline off at sitter. Hear how much she has changed. Drive to work.
7:00am-15 minutes late to work.
8-10:00am-Print and PDF numerous promissory notes. Shove pencils in eyes b/c it is so boring.
11:00am-Boring
12:00pm-DRIVE TO MCDONALDS!!!! Yell at stupid moron drivers. Eat sucky McD's and go back into work.
1:00-3:59pm-Calculate prepayment penalties for loans that converted to a fixed interest rate using the Federal Reserve statistics for the weekly H15 rates. Blah blah blah. Go to bathroom every 45 minutes throughout the day. Still no period.
4:00pm-Pick up Caroline. She only cough/choked 3 times at sitter's house. Lucky her. By her, I mean the sitter.
5:00pm-Enjoy a long bathroom visit. Still no period in case you were wondering.
6:00-7:00pm-Gossip with neighbor. Make some ranch bacon pasta. Feed baby. Change diaper.
8:00pm-Do this

There you go. I know you are jealous. You wish you had my life. Oh and today is my half birthday. Exciting stuff.

I'm sure that one day she'll hate me for this

A new addition

to the blog. If you will look to the right, you will see a new section devoted to my third love-celebrity gossip. I can't get enough! I recently found all the cool blogs and have listed some of my favorites. I might even add more.

Please notice the disclaimer. Occasionally, there might be a picture that isn't entirely work appropriate. There were still shots of the Colin Farrell homemade porn a couple weeks ago on one of them.

D-Listed has a TON of links to other sites.

Enjoy!!!

I'm in for a long night

Doing what she does best...


Caroline has pretty much been sleeping the WHOLE DAY and when I try to get her to stay up, she's really floppy and just falls back asleep. She'll be bright-eyed around 2 a.m. I can picture it now...

John is working an extra shift today and his regular shift tomorrow. Then on Monday night, he'll be working an overnight at the surgery center. Even though our lives are completely different now, I still miss him a ton. When we go to bed at night, it is like we barely have enough energy to kiss goodnight before we both roll over and fall asleep. It's so romantic!

Today Caroline got her pics taken at Picture People. She would not smile AT ALL. She's been extra smiley everywhere else lately, so I was kind of bummed. Oh well. It's not like I don't have a MILLION pictures of her already and it's not like she will never get her pics taken professionally again. YAY for free 8x10 coupons!!

Did I mention I am waiting for my period?? I am and I hate waiting. I have no patience. It has been almost 7 weeks since I stopped breastfeeding and 2 weeks since I started taking my tumor meds. I was kinda hoping it would happen soon b/c the thought of getting pregnant again is starting to terrify me.

One day I will organize my thoughts into specific topics/posts. I'm just better at stream of consciousness writing. The randomness works for me.

Love is a beautiful thing

She really is the sweetest face ever made. The past couple of days have been absolutely wonderful. My Sweet Caroline smiles at me more and more everyday and everyday, my heart grows a little bigger. OMG-it's just amazing and really hard to put into words. I love this little girl so much and I am so thankful that she is here.

Right now, she is sitting in her OW bouncer and talking to herself. She just started doing this and it cracks me up. Lots of coos and gaa noises.

I love it when people in random places comment on her. We were at the Crapper Barrell yesterday and a lady at the table next to us kept on saying how beautiful she is. SHE IS!! THANK YOU!! *insert my huge ass smile here*

And watching John with her?!?! OMG Don't even get me started. I knew I was in love with him 5 years ago when I saw him with my cousins. He is fantastic with kids and always has been. When I see him with our baby girl, my heart just melts. She smiled at him first and she already has him wrapped around her tiny little finger. That didn't take long at all. She is definitely a Daddy's Girl.

There's a whole lotta love in our house now. It's gonna be coming out the doors soon.

It's all about the numbers and competition

It's all about how many times I've fed her or how many poopy diapers he's changed. It's all about who has to get up in the middle of the night however many days in a row. It's all about the next 2 nights when he won't be home at all. Eventually, it is all going to even out and eventually we will both realize that it doesn't freaking matter and has to be done anyway.

My mom and my sister have this odd little competition going. Or rather, my mom does. Laura just laughs at her. If my mom does something with Caroline or sees her and Laura doesn't-she calls her and rubs it in. Laura babysat for me on Saturday morning while I was at the dentist. When I told my mom, she seemed hurt. WTF?

Me: I'm going to the dentist at 7:30 tomorrow morning, so Laura is going to come over and watch Caroline for me.
Her: *pause*pause*pause*pause*Oh.
Me: This was last minute and she only lives 2 miles away.

Oh and my second week back at work is so much better. As much as I miss her, I think that being at work is helping me. I have to be sane to raise her right?!

And the titles magicallly appear

It just took me awhile to figure out how to do it. Note to self: Blogger Help is there for a reason!

It's Saturday and I just finished my first week back at work. I am bored bored bored!! Four more people were hired since I've been gone. I do my work and then play on the Snark. AND I GET PAID FOR IT!! Suckas!

Seriously though. My first day back, I couldn't get into my computer because I forgot the password. I had to reset that and then when I got into my computer, I realized that my access had been taken away due to lack of use. Then I had to wait for all that to be fixed. You would think the boss would have taken care of some of that before I came back. She knew when it was going to happen. What she DOES do is tell me that I will be training people. I told her no. I need to retrain myself!

I've made it perfectly clear that I am only there for the money. I sit and stare at the pics in my cube and go through my shutterfly albums over and over.

Work=money=bills paid

I need to just say this over and over in my head.

Pure joy! 

My sister thinks I have the best blog. She is totally biased. This blog really is boring as hell. It's all baby all the time! Woo freaking hoo.

We are having "a night." Today was her first day at the sitter. The sitter fed her every 2 hours. I choose to agree with Eggy that she just doesn't know her cries, but tonight SUCKS!! She has pretty much been SCREAMING since 730pm and has only eaten 2 oz since 400pm. I'm in for a long night. Poor thing sounds like she is in pain and when I tried to feed her again, she would take a couple of sucks and then start screaming. I'm worried that her throat hurts or something. That is what I have had. How do you tell if a baby's throat is inflamed???? You can't exactly say open wide. She was flailing around a lot though. Maybe she is just overtired and overstimulated from her first day??? Parenting is a lot of guessing. Wouldn't it be the best if babies could talk right out of the womb?

If she is still like this tomorrow, I will probably have John call the doctor since I will be at work.

And her feeling yucky and me being gone becomes yet ANOTHER reason why it tears me up that I have to be at that fucking place. Stupid bills, stupid work...